Well, all that "official paperwork" only took 6.5 weeks. No time at all right?
I've found myself using words like "finally." "forever." and "sooooooo" and "looooong." My husband spoke up a couple of weeks ago and told me I was being ... well... ridiculous. He reminded me that this is the process. That God has this thing in the palm of his hand. That this is just how long things take and really, didn't I think this was moving quite fast? Ummmmm....... no. On my way to work one morning I was listening to Beth Moore and I just pushed play where I had left off months ago. It was the series on Esther (I totally recommend by the way) and can you guess what? The entire session was on trusting and waiting. Have I mentioned that I am tiny little bit of a control freak? I like being in control because it gives me a strong sense of safety and security. God has moved in and has been reminding me in not-so-subtle ways that HE is in control and I need to sit back and trust that he has totally got this covered. And oh the wait. It's harder than I thought it was going to be. The longing for the day that I can hold her tight and kiss those cheeks! It's tough. But God brought such a beautiful reminder to me. Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you; therefore he will rise up to show you compassion. For the LORD is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him! Isaiah 30:18 He is longing too. That word "longing" is the exact same word in Hebrew as wait. There is no waiting without longing. And He will bring it all to pass in His perfect timing. Some days this is a fresh peace that washes over me. Other days it's a tight grip in my chest that everything could unravel and I'm powerless to stop it. But His mercies are new every morning and every morning is a chance for me to lay my will at His feet and trust where this is going. Because He is so worthy to be trusted! Right after we were matched with our girl, Ben asked me if I had any reservations about moving forward. I knew that with us switching agencies we would have to pay about $9,000 just to move forward. I told Ben that I was concerned that we didn't have the money that we would need to move forward. He immediately responded that he wasn't concerned about money at all. So we said yes in faith. A few days later our new agency sent us the payment plan that we would need to pay before getting officially matched with our girl. And God showed up. For no given reason and no explanation the agency cut our fees by $5,850. Our agency fee was only $4,000! The next day we were doing our taxes and our refund covered the entire payment! This still gives me goosebumps as I write it. Total God thing. Speaking of our girl and being officially matched. We received our preliminary approval from China a few days ago! This is the CCCWA officially agreeing to review our dossier specifically for her when it is entered into their system. This is really exciting for us and a really big step! So! I have waited (im)patiently for 6.5 weeks to introduce you our beloved daughter. Her name is Charlotte. And you can meet her here. We would love for you to read all about where she is living, the work that is being done, and of course all about her! Here is a sneak peek- I could fall in love just with that top bun!
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